I finally can sleep.

Thank God for this day.

A heartful of distraught.

My sleep, my train & bus rides and my thoughts get shaken up every now and then.

God of peace, calm my soul. Remove these thoughts and make me whole.

When you’re at your lowest, the only way is up.

I’m trusting God for providence. I’m leaving it all to the One who knows best. My lifegroup, my own life and my finance, I commit them into Your hands.

Busy is not a business.

I’ve been so busy. This week has been quite insane. The amount of something-to-do is appalling.

Good news: This week is over
Bad news: Next week is gonna be the same

Trusting in the Lord to sustain through the month of April. As well as money, money…

Back with some acts factors.

Never felt so consistently worn out before. My first 5 days at internship somehow felt like weeks. I guess it’s because the mundane 9 to 6 office routine is very different from my lifestyle. Adapting to it is a giant struggle I’ll tell you. With dance practices on monday and wednesday, and NYP Meet on thursday, I secretly longed for a weekend break. But not a chance. Friday once I knocked off I immediately got down to Downtown East to join the church camp. The thought of carrying a baggage to office was quite a hassle but not yet the real terror. Most dreaded was my weekend rest been made impossible because of the 3 days at camp and come monday I have to repeat that 9 to 6 thing again. Does it suck? Yes and no.

Yes:
I’m so tired. My dance practices from next week onwards will be monday, wednesday, thursday and friday. Each ends about 10.00pm at earliest. So 9 to 6, then 6.30 to 10.30… Well, you do the math. My sleep hours are little and you probably haven’t been seeing me online at all lately. I need a massage. I need some friends. I need some shoulders and encouragement.

No:
I rushed to this camp with an unprepared heart (somewhat moody/grumpy too). But God readied me by the first night of the camp and I just continued to experience Him in the other two days. I was very much encouraged by my lifegroup too. Justin, Liting, Gekkee, Glenn, Lennie and Ivan. Just wanna give a shoutout to these fellas for being there with me. Enjoyed your affirmations too. Thanks! Moving in the spirit workshop was great! Managed to get a few insightful bites off the lessons and munched on some great reminders. Ivan received the holy spirit!

Now I need to get back to finishing up a report. Thank you for catching up on my life here. God bless y’all. (:

Humility.

You can’t learn humility by staring at the word or reading it a hundred times over. You gotta practise it. In every given situation, seize the opportunity to minimize yourself and magnify God.

If you know nothing.

I figured lately that I’ve forgotten patience. Many years back, I used to be a very patient person and nothing fazed me easily. Not anymore. I’ve been quite quick-tempered recently. The slightest things annoy me – not being understood when I explained something clearly, seeing people behave selfishly and talk like they know it all, my good intentions not being appreciated/reciprocated and the list goes on. The worst of it all is talking back at me. If I’m being proud, unreasonable or wrong, definitely you have the right to stop me. But sometimes, people just disagree for the sake of it. What it seems to be human nature to be defensive on their first reply. I dislike that greatly whether I’m still smiling back or furiously silent. God, help me to be who you want me to be. Let your love guide me. Patience…

On another note, my internship with Global Spectrum will begin monday. Basically what I’ll be doing is shooting videos of concerts, making advertisements, managing websites, managing the LED billboards and marketing efforts for Singapore Indoor Stadium. Nervous? Not really. But I just dread waking up at 6.30am everyday because my travel time to Stadium is a hefty one and half hours approximately. And the fact that my job involves weekends, because concerts are mostly weekends. My week will be auto-planned, leaving me only the short nights for self-amusement/whatnots. I hope I’ll be diligent and useful in the 6 months I’m there. Gotta be salt & light too.

And just for fun… (my new tee)